96 days later............

I dont know what happened or why its taken 96 days between posts........but honestly a lot has happened. Ive had so much that I couldnt put everything that occured or would even attempt because so many things deserve their own separate post. Lets just say the changes I was looking for in December have more than happened. Has it been the desired results, not at all. Am I disappointed by the results, not even close. In all truth, I am more at peace with the person that I am and believe I can do so much more for not only society, but for myself. I really hope its not 96 days between posts again as I am going to attempt these next few hours and days to update my life in between posts. To anyone who kept in tune from December to March, I really am sorry. And if this is where you begin reading whatever happens these next six months, saddle up because things are about to get real..........

Todd

What can you do?

you know what you can do? You can do anything!!!! Hopefully no one forgets this :)

Not going to plan..............

You know, you wake up and eat your breakfast, plan out what you want to get accomplished, and make necessary plans to do it. You call those that can help you with this endeavour and feel pretty good about yourself. However, this rarely ever goes exactly the way you want. There is always something that interferes or takes things out of sync no matter how much you plan for it. The thing that we all have to realize is that these things happen, look for the opportunities that it does bring, and try our best to take advantage of it! If everyone really sits and thinks about it, most of our greatest moments came after some botched plan. So dont really change your morning rituals, because sometimes things to come to fruition, just keep an open mind and heart for whatever the day ultimately brings. And then you get to really enjoy the moment!

Alternative thinking............

Monday starts the month of March, which is when I think we should start the new year. I think that is why so many people fall short of their resolutions. How can you try to when its cold, cloudy, and just flat out depressing. Maybe if more people started their goals on March 21st, more people would feel better about themselves. If you have to use January 1st for something, utilize it as the start of planning what you want to do the rest of the year and plan for it the next 10plus weeks. No one has to do it, but I do think it could be a positive alternative. Till next time.............

The Buck Stops Here

So after weeks of good fortune, life finally evened itself out. From the moment I woke up on Monday it has been nothing but a struggle. The first week that truly reminded me of life before I started trying to change things about my life. And I would like to think today is rock bottom day of it all, but we all know that there is always a lower level you can go. However, as I'm writing this piece of work, I do feel quite a bit better. I do feel like even though things hurt, I am growing stronger as a person. And that is what I do want each and every day, a sense of growing one way or another. And I do know this storm will end just like the others. Will it be bright and sunny? I really doubt it because this storm opened my eyes of what path I have been walking on lately. And its not really the way that I want to be anymore. Not that my decisions have been bad, in all truth fairly good ones, but I have to hold myself to a higher standard than I used to(which was already higher than most people hold themselves). Instead of focusing on improving on myself, I want to continue on helping other people. I set a goal on improving my community and I havent done anything at all. I am supposed to be surrounding myself with like-minded people and while I have done this to some degree, I could and should be doing a lot better. I am supposed to be building a mind and body to be able to do more than I ever could, but it seems like I cannot maintain anything more than a few days. More than anything I am writing as a vent because no one individually needs this upon themselves, but I do hope it does help someone else that is probably going through the same struggles. And I do hope people pray that I come through this with a sense of growth and can do the things I have mentiioned not only today, but since mid December. Until I write again, Im gonna keep fighting!!!!!

Living.................

Sometimes, things just arent as easy as you would like them. Some days are going to be harder than what you need them to be. Struggling is just a part of everyone's life that really cannot be prevented. There are going to be times where you really feel at the bottom of the barrel and not worth anything. And the day will come when you feel completely alone with no one to stand by you. However, its during these times when you really find out who you are and what you stand by. Times like this are when the greatest people find themselves and use the hurt and pain to make a difference not only for themselves, but for others. Nothing great was ever done easily, there is always a struggle. If it seemed easy, then it really isnt great. There is always a higher level, and to reach it you have to give something up. So the question you have to really and truly ask yourself is, what do you have to give up in order to do the greatness we were all put on this Earth to do, and when the time comes, can you in fact do it? I really hope that I can when the time comes, but it would really help if I even knew what has to be taken away?

just staying busy..........

Forget everything I said about last week, definitely beat that this week. Apparently somehow I applied for business school and hopefully that goes through. Just been trying to be the best guy I can be and do everything possible that I can. Sorry Ive been slacking in the writing department, as soon as things slow down I am going to try my best to keep things updated. So I'm gonna close out for now, but I plan on having more details in the next few days......ttyl