Its what I do

So thru all the last few blogs, I am sure you are confused. Im still a bit confused in so much so theres no way I completely explained it in a way anyone else could fully grasp it all. Im sure youre asking with all of this, where is this guy heading? The truth is..........I really dont know. I had a goal of doing things for more than myself and it seems like Ive done more for myself than ever. It seems like Ive abandoned my job, my friends, and feel like Ive not been there for my family anyways. However, Ive been told that before you can do anything for anyone else, you have to be right yourself. Does that mean you have to be perfect first? Not at all, because that will never happen. But I do think you do have to be at an understanding of who you want to be and at least have the values you feel comfortable with. Doesnt mean you have to be there. Who knows, I may never be where I wanna be. I just feel Im on the right path. I think I finally have values that can really help me be a better person. I dont feel as lost and Ive went deeper in my soul than I ever have. Which was my drive for doing things for others to begin with. So would I say Ive accomplished what I wanted.........no no no. Its a journey not a trip. A journey I am so excited to start finally! And I feel completely open and safe to share with anyone who cares to know. And thats a growth for me as well. So the best way I know to sum up my goals for now is to be the best person I can be each and everyday and always try my best to grow in some way. And hopefully through all of that make a mark upon this world before my next journey begins after this life. Because faith without works isnt anything. Thank you to everyone and Ill do my best to write soon!!