Different Paths...

Ever since my mid teenage years, Ive always had a sort of system on how Ive went about friendships. Ive usually had a best guy friend, a best girl friend, and a secondary group that filled in the blanks. Its been a pretty good system for a long time. However, as Ive searched within myself and seen things that I could improve on, how I am with other people kept popping back up. So I started evaluating each friendship and how it benefitted not only each person, but how people were being treated in general. The deeper I went, the more mistakes I realized on my end. Not only have I put too much for one person to be, but I really didnt look how some people were treating others. And its made me look a little less of a decent person as well. Then upon looking further, I realized a lot of people werent really treating me very respectful either. Rather than cause a bunch of scenes, end things badly, or who knows what else, I just decided to slowly filter these things out of my life to a degree. Some degrees more than others. By doing these things, it has made the people I associate with now mean a lot more. There are a few people I really do wish I had more time with. And there are people I will spend more time with due to the unforseen extra time I now have. Do I see me going back to my old system? I seriously doubt it. I dont really want to have a system. I dont really want to have a persay best friend. I would rather have a lot of people that I enjoy their company when we are blessed to have moments together. That way nobody has any pressure to be anything to the other party. I do believe I will keep more acquaintances as well, its a lot easier. And I do plan on still trying to find a group of people that really do have a desire to make a difference in this area and if theres a chance anyone gets an unfair share of my time, it will be those people. To those that I wont be as close with, no bad feelings, its just time for both parties to continue the different paths that weve been already traveling on to begin with. Its just time to let go......