Cant quite put my finger on it.......

While Im self-evalutating myself, lets go ahead and tackle the things I usually refrain from, such as dating. I actually like being single when it all comes down to it. Most people arent fans, but it seems like it has served me a good purpose throughout my twenties, for the most part. Ive had my moments I wanted to try dating, and sometimes I tried to date and sometimes I didnt. While my dating history has had several frustrating moments or longer fractions of time, I dont see any reason for changing the events thats transpired. However, recent thoughts have made me wonder how much longer do I really want to go about things in this manner. I think Ive grown to the point that it could actually be fun to date someone with the possibility of it having some lasting ability. Im definitely more sure of the man that I am, and it has opened up my mind to be able to focus more on what I want in a woman. In my younger years, I was attracted to women who went against the grain, rebelled against the laws, and did things out of the ordinary. Looking back, thats been a terrible idea. Yeah, ive got hidden rebellious tendencies here and there, but they dont last long. And these experiences didnt last long or end well. I would be attracted to girls that had some glaring characteristic and that didnt go well either. Same goes for the girls that had all these deep thoughts on life or were scared of messing up the relationship themselves. All were a bad idea and seem to all stem from my inner fear of commitment or being happy with someone. Yeah, finally admitting it and fun to say Im doing it on the internet, but its better than nowhere. So we ask, what type of girl do I need to put focus on seeing where it goes. First and foremost, a woman who has good core values that she doesnt flake about in relationships. I have mine that I occasionally struggle with and it would help to be with someone at least as strong as I am with the person they want to be. Am I saying they have to be Christian values? Honestly, in earlier times I didnt really care, but those times have passed. Denomination isnt important, but seeing eye to eye on religion is a good idea in the long run. Politics, I dont care because it may actually be fun to argue about. That and I really dont pay attention till about a week before elections. Being fit and active isnt as important as being healthy. However, it would help considering I do like hiking, photography, exercise, and bike riding. Again, another point I used to not care about but times have changed. Intellegence is still a must, but that doesnt mean she has to read books to do so, there are other ways to show your wit. Family and children are important because I plan on having them at some point. Preferrably Id like to be with someone without previous children, but I wouldnt call that a dealbreaker by any means. I love children and as long as the situation with the father wasnt anything overdramatic I am open to that type of relationship as well. Well, there are other little tweaks here and there that Im still trying to sort out, and I think I will, but I dont wanna keep on ranting about it tonight. I miss sleep and maybe itll come to me in a dream or somethin. Anyways, sleep well.............