Keeping it real

This week has been nothing short of a challenge. However, through it all I still managed to get everything done that was needed to be accomplished. So that feels good to say the least. However, a lot of things have been opened up in my mind and in my heart that I really dont see easily closing. And the worst thing about it is I really dont know what to do, or how to handle it. I do hope that prayer and just doing some deep soul searching does a whole lot to make me at least feel more at peace with everything. I am not asking for answers right now as much as what are even the questions. I am that far lost in everything right now. But............when you ask for growth and change, you will in fact recieve those things. So now it really begins. What I was searching for back in December is looking at me in the face. What kind of man do I in fact want to be? What are the things that really make me feel alive? Have I really surrounded myself around the right people to fully utilize my God given abilities? Those are the simple ones I do know are out there, but the real deep to the core ones have yet to be seen. Hopefully these questions come out in the following days and then I will try to concentrate on answering a few.